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02 November 2009 @ 10:55 pm

Peacebeuponya'all !!! :D

God's willing, I'll be wearing braces soon. (: Going for my next appt this thur during my 2hr break at NUH.

I quit silat ald and I put on hold for Sakura. I won't be working on Mon, Tue and Sun. The rest of the days I can work. hehehe.
And, I will only stay back at work on Fri and Sat. If I get to put my name on the list.

FIDAH!!!!!
                                 Do your Maths tutorial!!!!!      hahaha!

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-Sometimes the very thing that we want so much is actually bad for us. That is why, sometimes, we don't get what we've always wanted. So, let us all try not to be too upset or devastated because we don't get what we want badly. I know it's hard. I went through it ald and I'm sure everyone has gone thru this also. (:

-Sometimes, the feeling of attraction to someone grew inside of me without me wanting to. Sometimes, without me expecting too. And, I'll just go with the flow. Tap to the rhythm. Cos' sometimes, I think he is just too far from me.       He's on MARS. And I'm on EARTH.

                                                                           Cos' Im the Earthling.                          And, he's the Marsling.   LOL!

Wassalam.

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29 October 2009 @ 01:59 am

Peace Be Upon You.

Hey People!!!! hahaha. HeLLuuuuu...... :D

I won't be working at Sakura this week. Cos I found replacement for both of the days that I'm supposed to be working.
Hehehe. Cool uh. By the same person named Safura.... Thks babe.
Today, I'll be going out w my fren to search for her bf's b'dae pressie. Dan is like a fanatic fan of transformers. hahaha.
If a guy have a hobby, he'll really be into it like almost 24/7. hahaha.
So this week, I'll only be working at hotel on the weekends. 2 days only. In a wk.

School's ok. Usual stuffs. Attend lectures, do hwk, gpwork, lunchbreaks, laugh out loud with friends, eat, sleep. hahaha.
I'm famous for sleeping in class. Smtyms, I can't take it. I js find myself alws feeling sleepy during class.
Esp. aft lunchtime sia. Aft u've taken in alot of carbo, u'll tend to feel sleepy. Cos carbo will release sm hormone tt induce sleep. So tt's y u'll feel sleepy if u've had a starchy meal. My classmate, Clarissa, nvr fails to remind me nt to eat too much during lunch cos she knows i'm alws eating until i get full and then end up sleeping during lectures. hahaha.

And, i'm nw js frens w razif. nth more, nth less. hmm.... It's lyk. when he asked me out, I'm free. so, i just went out w him ah. cos I'm free wt.
If wanna be with him back also, he still haven't settled his probs so might as well just be frens. I dun wana hev a complicated r.ship w him. hahaha. had enuf of tt ald. Bt wteva lah eh.

About silat.... I tink i won't be coming for anymore of their trainings. Lazy ah. hehehe.

Tt's all folks. Wassalam.

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27 October 2009 @ 04:44 am

Peacebeuponyou.

Matahari bersinar keriangan, memancarkan surianya ke seluruh alam tetapi keriangan itu tetap tidak dapat ku resapkan ke dalam diriku.
Angin bertiup sepoi-sepoi,bergurau senda dengan selendangku yang selalu melindungiku dari pandangan-pandangan yang tercela.
Bulan senyum padaku, wajahnya tidak pernah suram.
Aku mahukan dikembalikan kegembiraan yang selalu menemaniku dahulu.
Aku dambakan keceriaan yang sering menghinggapi wajahku.
Aku pinta, aku pinta dariMu, Ya Allah, supaya diberikan kekuatan untuk melalui dugaanMu ini.
Supaya dikurniakan kesabaran.
Kerna aku merasa tidak mampu untuk menjalani ini semua akibat kesedihan yang tidak terhingga.
Setiap hari, aku hanya bersandiwara di hadapan semua manusia.
Aku senyum tetapi hatiku monyok.
Aku ketawa tetapi batinku menangis.
Aku tahu bahawa aku memang patut melalui ini semua sebagai balasan ke atas dosa-dosaku selama ini,
Aku tidak akan berhenti daripada memohon keampunan dariMu.
Aku berharap sangat untuk kemaafanMu.

Wassalam.

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20 October 2009 @ 07:06 pm

Peace be Upon You.

19.10.09- First day of school.

It was great cos I FINALLY gt to meet my friends!!!

Get to know our new modules and lecturers.

20.10.09- Second day of school.

I like it better than the first one cos I only have to come to school for four hours. hehehe.

Four hours of Maths that is.

And before I attended my first lesson of the day, I sent an sms to him.

A msg that I wished I don't have to send.
A msg that breaks my heart into pieces.
A msg that'll change everything from this day onwards.
A msg forcing me to let go.
A msg that will never fail to make tears trickle down my cheeks.

Cos I really do love him but as much as I love Muhammad Razif bin Hudri, I'd rather reach for the Almighty's love.
Cos His love will last and is the best among all love.

I can't deny this piece of fact. I'm soo sad and I can't help but just cry.

Wassalam.

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crushed

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17 October 2009 @ 10:08 am

Peace Be Upon You.

Some updates about Viva La Fidah.

When School reopens, I'll be juggling my time for studies and two jobs.
I'll be working at Sakura on wkdays, when I'm released early from sch. Whereby, on wkends, I'll be working at hotel.
Hotel offer better rate per hr on wkends than Sakura.
I placed my resignation form on the office's desk ald but Miki don't wanna let me go cos there's alot of newbies.
So yarh... I won't be able to quit Sakura just yet.

God's willing, I can wear braces. I don't know when this will happen b'cos it's still under discussion.
I'm working so hard as part-tmer simply b'cos I'm collecting money for my braces. I nd to fork out $1000 for the deposit.
I want to wear braces, I pay for myself. My mum won't pay for me. Hahaha.

Wokey Dokey. That's all.

Wassalam.

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09 October 2009 @ 01:02 am

Peace be upon you.

Pls bear with me. I'm just trying to get things straight. And trying to get this piece of burden out of my mind and heart.

When it comes to love, I find it hard to make a decision, to draw a line that sets everything apart.

When it comes to the one that I love, I tend to forgive. But, definitely not forget. Cos it's already etched in my memory what. ALAMAK.

When it comes to loving someone, I do it 100%. FID mah... :D

So now, right now. My pinky, hardworking brain is telling me to let go, to leave but my heart is directing me to the opposite path.

Stop all those worryings about you going out with your 'baby sweetie'.
Stop all those chattings in the wee hours.
Stop all those meaningless meetings that we've done.
Stop all those lies that you're throwing at me.
It's time I put a stop to all of this shits.

Memories will be memories.

I thank you, for all those sweet times that we've had.
I'll treasure them.
I thank you, for breaking my heart time and time again.
cos each time it happens, it just makes me stronger.
I thank you, for making me feel loved.
I appreciate it (even though idk whether it's genuine or not)

This time round, I ain't gonna crash.
I'm gonna stand up and walk on.
And, when you look into my eyes again, you'll find a different girl.
It's not the fidah that you've known for half a year. It's FID. Hahaha.

I can't believe I can find all of this funny. Fidah, Fidah.

I guess, we're just better off as friends. (:

Wassalam.

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01 October 2009 @ 02:12 am

Peace Be Upon you(:

Worked today. Split shift (lunch and dinner) Dinner extended to 11pm.

Tired sia. Bt anyway, tmr i ain't working... YAY! gg for my dental app. at 11.15 am at NUH.

Im nt working on Fri too. hehehe. :D

I really want to get a new telekung sia.

and, a small Koran with EL translation. So that I can bring it to madrasah and whenever I go out. :D

My total working hours for this month is 116.5 hrs. hehehe. But the pay rate is $4.50 per hr. So, I don't really get much ah.

This is my first time working for more than 100 hrs. cool sia. hehehe.

tt's all for now.

Wassalam. (:

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28 September 2009 @ 01:38 am

Peace Be Upon You(:

My open house went alright. Alhamdulillah (All praises be to God)
There were lontong, soto, fried chicken, malay delicacies, rojak bandung and many more ah.
And, Pei pei gave me chocolates! hehehe. thks babe (:
My peeps that came to my house are Clarissa, Pei pei, Pam, Syakir, Hariz & Mussy.
The rest of my friends esp. the BELOs wil be coming technically today morning. I didn't invite them since they'll be coming the very next day.

Went to work at 4.15pm. I was lazy to find a replacement.
I didn't get to meet Shahidah & Faizah!!! Miss them sia.
I won't be working for two days this week- today & thurs. I'll be working lunch tmr. cos Mussy badly wanted to replace me for dinner.
Actually, he wanted to replace me for both lunch & dinner. I was reluctant to give it to him bcos I nd money myself bt in the end, I still gave my dinner slot to him.

He didn't go online today. I waited for him sia. Hmm... This is kind of irritating bt nvrmind maybe sth cropped up.

Wassalam.

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27 September 2009 @ 03:35 am

Peace Be Upon You(:

Sorry for not updating for such a long time.
Ramadhan has passed and now we are celebrating Raya.
I can't wait for BELOs jln raya this monday. The first house will be MINE((:

                                   Meeting place: Yew Tee MRT Stn
                                                      Time: 1030

I damn MISS them!!! It's been sooo lonnggggg since we all get together and spend time.
Then, on the 10.10.09 I'll going with the Silat people! I bet this one is gonna be fun too. Cos, silat ppl are crazy ppl. Muahahaha.

So, technically, I'll be having an open house today at arnd 1pm (after Zuhur). The confirmed guests (mine) are Mussy, Azmil, Clarissa, Pei Yun and Pam. I didn't invite BELOs cos they'll be coming to my house the very next day. So, just come the next day. (:
Will be going to work with Mussy and Azmil (I think). I ain't sure whether they are working tmr or nt.

The colour of my baju kurung this year is ...... drumroll..... BLACK. (: with blue coloured flower motives.
It's all black ths year.    Black baju kurung.    Black heels.    Black bag.

                                                                       EXCEPT. For one thing.

                                                                                       EYES.

                                                                                       [blue]                      Hehehehe.

I honestly think that being single is much more easier. Hah.   :D

Wassalam.

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29 August 2009 @ 08:41 am

So, tell me your current situation now, babe.

Peace be upon ya' all!! :DD

Let's make my post short and sweet (:
Sorry for not updating for SOO long.

So, FID is currently...
-going thru the exam period. My last paper is on 3rd sept.
-working part-time at Sakura Orchard.
-happily together with him.
-happily fasting(:
-planning to go terawih aft. exams.
-broke.
-listening to music
-tired.

Wassalam.

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tired

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18 June 2009 @ 01:44 am

Peace Be Upon You (:

MST is really around the corner. It's in two weeks time. Lesser than two weeks.
Been busy with chem. and milk project lately.
Up next, is FFSC report. A report on pasta, sauces, tomatoes and so on.

I'm now in T644, having Lab Maths lesson on Excel. I'm listening. Yes, I am. hehe.

I'm going for silat outing at Sentosa today. We are meeting at 11 am at Harbourfront MRT station. I'll be going off at 4.30pm because I need to go off to work which starts at 6pm. Congrats Seniors for clinching two silvers and a bronze. WOOHOO!

I overspent my salary for this month and I feel so guilty.

That's all for now.

Wassalam.

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07 June 2009 @ 12:54 pm

In the Name of God, The Most Gracious and Merciful.
Peace be upon you.

I just finished watching the first episode of Science and Islam from BBC at Youtube. Such an eye-opener and revealing video. Thanks to ukhti Ama for uploading the first part of the episode on her blog. (:

I'm working at six today and I'm meeting Wirda at the MRT station at 4.30.

Last Friday, was an awesome day. After such a long period of time, the BELOs finally get to meet up and gather. This is all thanks to events held like Kranji SYFiesta concert, Dream Oasis. And, thanks to this event I got to see QBB! WAH! I missed him! Haha.

After the concert, we went Banquet to eat and I spent a HUGE sum of $6 on Yong Tau Foo with noodles for dinner! I'm not rich okay. I can't wait to get my pay this Tuesday! Thinking of buying specs.

Anyway, after fulfiling our stomachs' desires, I head home with Eiqa leaving the rest behind at Woodlands MRT station to hang out.

I hope SP Silat team did well in the IVP competition. I could not watch them compete because I'm working. I don't know when the ones fighting will compete but I know that the arts competion started yesterday. I wish them the best of luck for the competition. They have certainly practised hard for it. Gambateh, Seniors!

Wassalam.

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12 May 2009 @ 10:16 am

Peace Be Upon You(:

I really feel like quiting my job but I can't you see. I need to pay for my religious class fees, handphone bills and buy my contact lenses. About the last one, I'm considering on buying a pair of spectacles though, to save money in the long run but I don't like wearing specs. Anyway, I still have not buy my nephew's birthday present. He wants a book but it was not in Popular bookstore. I don't even know if the book have been released or not since it's an upcoming n

I was just contemplating in the past few days on people. I find it funny that a Muslim person would rather pay back prayers at home when you can actually pray in school. A non-muslim friend of mine would even remind me to perform my prayer during the break time. How ironic is that? I'm glad that I have that kind of friend.

Lately, I have quite a number of assignments. It's quite a shock after not having to do homework for months. OMG! I'm supposed to go to KSS to buy the SYFiesta ticket. (* Smacks myself on the head*)WTHeck. I think most of the teachers should have gone back home by now. But... my neighbour is having her SPAR exam tmr. hmm... Nevermind, I'll just go tmr straight after school. I am so forgetful! Pitied Ms Sim for waiting for me outside the staffroom from 1:40pm till I don't know when.

Lastly, I want to apologise for not updating my blog for a long time. Blog is not that important you see. The important thing is assignments, exams and CCA. Talking about exams... Last Sat, I studied the wrong subject for my religious exam. I was supposed to study Tafsir but I studied Ulum Quran instead. How intelligent can i get? But, luckily, the realisation hit me on that day itself at about 3 in the afternoon. And, it just so happened that I'm working in the evening. -.- And, so, Rafidah went to work bringing along her thick and green Tafsir book, read it in the train which was heading to Marina Bay and praying hard that she understands all the interesting translations of the 4 surahs she had been reading (:

Wassalam.

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26 April 2009 @ 09:23 am

Peace Be Upon You (:

It has been eleven days since I posted an entry.
Been busy with school and work.
Trying to understand lectures from the module called Analytical and Physical Chemistry, badly.
Trying not to overwork myself.
Religious exams are nearing.
I just hope I can pull this through. Like, SERIOUSLY (:
And, thank God, I finally got used to wearing socks when I'm wearing pump shoes. :D
PSYCHOlogy; $29.50, heavy; big. :(

People always judge you by what they see. It may be wrong, it may be right.
But only One always judge you right.

Wassalam.

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14 April 2009 @ 12:48 am

Peace be upon you.

SO, basically CLS FOC is a 3D 2N camp in SP. We played like alot of close contact games, unfortunately. Like really, unfortunately.
But, it was fun. Getting all dirty and wet. Drinking and eating nasty things. Overall, it was all about knowing your schoolmates, forging everlasting friendships and adapting to a new environment.

Kem W.A.J.A.R was 4D3N. The camp was held around the same place as CLS camp. The good thing about this camp is that, we will never miss our prayers. YEAH! That's the way. This camp allowed me to find like malay friends in SP. Basically, widens my social network.

With the help of these orientation camps, I did not feel awkward today, during my orientation because I had already made friends who was in the same course as me. :D And, on the way to the teaching block, I saw the kem W.A.J.A.R facis! haha. Waved at them. Looks as if I'm a popular girl. LOL.

Let's sidetrack abit. Bear with me.

I don't know why. I'm not sure how. HOW and WHY this indescribable feeling slipped into my heart. Hmm...
I don't like it. I don't really want it. It just happens and now I don't know how to deal with it. I just hope and pray to Allah to help me go through this.

I'm trapped.
Trapped between two wings.
HOPE and FEAR.

Wasalam.

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curious

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03 April 2009 @ 02:10 am

Peace be upon you.
I'll post about the CLS FOC tmr. Hopefully.
And, I can't wait to meet STARlight on the 11th.
I will not book a working slot on that day, especially for my papa, mama, bros and sisters <3

Wassalam.

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27 March 2009 @ 01:07 am

Peace be upon you.

Do you know that,

Whenever I laugh, I will suddenly stop midway because I remembered that death has never stop chasing after me.
Whenever I am in darkness, the thought of darkness in the grave strikes me.
Whenever I see natural disasters, I start picturing how will the Final Day be like.

Sometimes, I ponder upon my religion.
Sometimes, I wonder why we must do this and not that.
Sometimes, I think about my fate in the Hereafter.

Occasionally, before I sleep, I would ask Allah the Almighty for forgiveness, protection and guidance.
Occasionally, I would look outside the window and appreciate the smallest pleasure Allah has given us, air.
Occasionally, I would talk to my parents as their daughter not as their friends.

One day, I will memorize and will always read Surah Al-Mulk.
For my safety, in the grave. You should too.

Wassalam.

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calm

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26 March 2009 @ 01:39 am

Peace be upon you.

I worked today at 6. Before going to work, I went to SP for CLS camp briefing which started at 1pm. Obviously, I came a bit late. I reached Dover MRT station at 1.15pm. Upon reaching the campus, the CLS people ushered me to the gathering venue.
Anyway, I forgot to bring my indemnity form and luckily I found it in my SP file just now. I was damn worried I threw the form away.

I saw Durian at Yew Tee MRT station just now. I can't believe I ran just to confirm that's him. He cut his hair. I guess it's called G.I. I always hear my mum says that. I didn't aknowledge him. I pretended that I didn't notice him. I don't know why I acted like that. I should have at least said Hi, shouldn't I? Hmm...
Haiya. I'll be meeting him this Friday anyway.

Today, at work, there's Filzah, Nett, Joy, Jo, James, Hakim And Hidhir. As usual, I was sent to work at Section B with Filzah. (: Hakim and Hidhir were the runners. Joy was the cashier. Jo, Nett and James were upstairs.

I have to find a replacement for this Saturday because I have to practice for my madrasah skit. Me and my group members are meeting at 6pm at Hajjah's house. So, I can't possibly work. Haiyo. So troublesome. This week, so many replacements already...

Tomorrow, I'm going to accompany my mum to a cooking lesson. One of the dishes being taught is tokoyaki. Did I spelt it correctly? Hehs. We'll see how the planning goes. Anyway, I don't really understand the need to attend cooking classes. I mean, if you want to cook a dish then you just follow the recipe. Simple. Why waste money attending the classes. I guess this must have got to do with the techniques.

Wassalam.

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happy

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25 March 2009 @ 12:01 am

Peace be upon you...

Today, I went for job hunting with my long time no see friend, Zahidah. We are friends since primary school days.
I applied jobs at Siam Kitchen (LOT 1) and Watsons ( Yew Tee Point). I wanted to apply at Delifrance but there was no job vacancy left. Told me to come again at the end of this year. Erm....

Then, I went to Westmall with my parents. We ate at S-11. Yeah, quite fun since my dad was the one who paid for the food. :P I ate a BK meal and Chicken rice. After that, we accompanied dad to Ar-Raudhah clinic at B.Gombak. Then, we ate again. This time rojak. haha. My mum wants to eat satay initially but she changed her mind.

So... this coming friday, I'm going out with my hotel colleagues. We are meeting at Lucky Plaza around 11.30am. So, Shaq is replacing me for lunch on Friday while Yana is replacing me for dinner on Thurs since she's longing to work so much. Haha. (:

Ouh yeah. Before I forgot. I bought two blouses today at LOT 1 for $19.80. So happy sey. They are considered cheap sey. $9.90 each. OK ah.

Wassalam...

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calm

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23 March 2009 @ 02:35 am

Peace be upon you(:

It's been a long time since I've updated my livejournal.
I'm just abit lazy, that's all. hehe.

16 March '09
I went to SP with my mum to settle my enrolment papers and buy a laptop.
We reached there at about 9.30am and walked out from there about 12 plus.
My enrolment day went smoothly. I guess SP is quite experienced in carrying out these events since we are the most established polytechnic in Singapore. (:
I bought the Lighweight Fujitsu laptop. Cost me and my mum $1, 913. Nett price.
All my money are gone. My bursary awards, my salaries. VANISHED just like that.
What to do. What to do...
I didnt even get the chance to shop. :(

I registered for two camps. My school's camp and a malay society camp [Kem W.A.J.A.R]
They cost $10 and $20 respectively.
CLS camp is 3D2N while Kem W.A.J.A.R is 4D3N. So, I won't be working for quite a number of days.

17 March '09
BELO outing!
In the morning, I accompanied Shark to SP to get back her adaptor from Vincent.
I had to return home again just so that my mum could read the newspaper. Urgh. Wasted my transport fare.
Then, met the rest at BK Marina Sq. My fav. fast food restaurant! Excellent choice!
We proceeded to the bowling alley.
I had FUN. So did the rest. But, Heerah didn't play sey. What a waste. Iqa played bowling for the first time. I was the first player and it was quite awkward for me since it had been a long time since I played bowling.
After tt, we went to pray at a Moulana mosque. Then, eat and slack at MacDonald. Solah Asar at the mosque again. HOME.

Here's some pics.

Wassalam (:

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